Well.. Different Stuff?

lovely people, i was in such an annoying mood for the past few months that i didn’t post or repost anything. I’m going to do this differently. i’m sorry!

today i’ll be longboarding (in the dutch rain yes) for just 7 km, and tommorow i’ll make a short film of the longboard crew. i’ll post that stuff :’)

this day i’ll have a (literally) High Tea, and a Girls night haha, gonna be fun. I think i want to stop writing depressed or hopefull stories about how i want my life to be. It’s okay to think about what you want, and try to archieve these goals.

but on the other hand,

past is the past, what now is will be past and future will be now. So you can live in the future and past, but you better live in the now, isn’t that the most important thing? it will follow you anyway, but you live the past different from the present and future expectations are never what they are. Thus…

and i feel good now. yes. happy and peacefull, and tears from yesterday are yesterday. i’m not going to cry about my tears of yesterday today. Only if i would still feel pain, but no i don’t.

So i’m happy.
Could have said it in 3 words, but my brain is overactive today.

Yes, I’ll make myself happy

this week i’ll…

-give a paper heart to everyone who touches my soul in some way

-share someting I normally would not share

-do or make something for someone else

-every moment that i feel a sudden stream of happiness, fully enjoy that moment and embrace it in my heart, so that i can feel it again when i’m sad

-say hello to someone you do or don’t know, from the heart. (like a maya: ’ I’m a different you’ while placing your hand on the one’s heart, but this is a more subtile version)

-write all the good experiences on a small piece of paper and read all the notes through at the end of the days. Put them in a box so that I can read them when i’m sad.

-finish my goals.